Yesterday’s post about Ginger was a bit of a downer. I didn’t expect people to be touched by it as much as they were. Thank you for reading it and for your comments and messages.
Today I’m feeling a little better, though when I think of her leaving, all the emotions come flooding back. The next few days will be bittersweet. A part of me wants Saturday to hurry up and get here so I can move on to acceptance and happiness for her. The other part of me wants it to never arrive so I can keep her all to myself forever.
I remind myself though, that she will always be safe. If it doesn’t work out with this family, she will come back to us. If it does, then she’ll be forever loved by them. All is good and right.
Sadly I won’t be here on Saturday to say goodbye. I’m going with my mom, mother-in-law and two sister-in-laws to the Biltmore for a Mother’s Day Tea. It sounds so fancy! My mom and I have never been there, but from their facebook posts and the info on their site, it looks pretty gorgeous. It’s a six hour round trip, so we’ll be leaving really early and getting home pretty late.
Since I won’t be here, I’m leaving Ginger’s adoption in Sean’s very capable hands. I know he won’t let her go if he feels they aren’t the right fit or if she doesn’t get along with her potential new brother. All signs though point to them being perfect for her, so I’ll say my goodbye’s before heading out Saturday morning.
I guess it’s good in a way that I’ll be out all day. It will force me to not wallow in my sadness. I’ll have all day Sunday for that.