Remembering You

Remembering You

Dear Doodles,

You left me a year ago yesterday. I couldn’t talk or write about it. I thought about it all day.

You were having breakfast at this time last year.

We were playing now.

I was working and you were sleeping on the couch.

We were rushing you to our vet.

Dad was driving us to the specialist, while I held you in my arms.

They whisked you away and I never saw you alive again.

Even today, when I think of you, there is a tightness in my chest and I can’t breathe. Followed by an ache inside of my body that is indescribable.

The pain is just as fresh today as it was a year ago, but it doesn’t seem to consume me as often. I was really sick a few weeks ago and I remember, day 7 or 8 of what felt like slowly dying, laying in bed and crying when I realized that it had been days since I had thought about you.

It’s quite normal for me to catch myself thinking of what you’d do about some new situation (the new guy on the block walking his cute little pugs 8 times a day) or how our pack has changed because you aren’t here and how you’d change things if you were.

It’s not all sad thoughts but even the happy thoughts make me sad some days. And some days they make me so grateful we had the chance to love your precious little soul.

 

You are missed and loved so very much my sweet boy. My only regret is that we didn’t have more time together. No amount would have been enough.

 

 

Update! 50 Mystery Watercolor Flower Paintings – Your Choice!

Update! 50 Mystery Watercolor Flower Paintings – Your Choice!

And you get a flower and you get a flower!

So, when I set out and planned the 50 Mystery Watercolor Flower Painting project, I gave myself a very limited time to do it.

  • 20 minutes to setup the page
  • 5 minutes to setup bumpsale.co and stripe
  • Asked a few friends for feedback on the idea (waited a couple of hours)
  • Launched it, so imperfectly!
  • LAUNCHED IT YAAAAAAS!

I knew if I sat on it for a few days, I’d talk myself out of it.

And now, I get to change it because what do I tell my clients? Launch it and test the shit out of it.

Then, iterate, iterate, iter…

So, I’m iterating…

I received a lot of feedback around choosing a specific flower. People were waiting and checking and missing out.

I heard that y’all are loving the mystery but you still have a favorite flower. I totally get it and appreciate and love the feedback. Thank you thank you.

So, now you get to decide what flower you want me to paint. I’ve updated the flowers that are available on the project page.

If you have previously purchased a flower I will be emailing you to let you know of this change and to confirm your flower. You can have the one you originally purchased or choose a new one.

If there’s a specific flower that you want but don’t see listed or if you have any questions contact me.

Watercolor sketchbooking

Watercolor sketchbooking

I’m trying out some watercolor pieces in my sketchbook for practice. This is still in-progress. I maybe shouldn’t have chosen a black dog as my first one, as it’s been a challenge layering the black color to really get it opaque.

I probably shouldn’t have chosen a black dog as my first one, as it’s been a challenge layering the black color to really get it opaque. And I have so little patience waiting for things to dry.

Whole30 Second Verse Same as the First

Whole30 Second Verse Same as the First

It’s either the weather that’s making me crazy or the abundance of fresh veggies this time of year, but we’re doing the Whole30 again.

This is almost two years to the date when we started the last one, and I loved it and I’m ready to give it another go because it just made me feel so damn good.

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We start on Monday June 29th. Don’t talk to me later next week but I should be just fine by July 4th.

Two week update

Two week update

It’s been a week since the lil nugget had a seizure.

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Maybe one day I’ll stop counting.  Not today.

Princess Val is amazing. She is doing all the things a puppy should do. Lots of sleeping, lots of eating, lots of playing, lots of chewing, and lots of pooping. She’s got this down to a science and will let me know if we are at all of schedule. There’s lots of howling also. I don’t know what’s up with that but it’s the cutest thing ever when you don’t have to listen to it all day long.

A year in a week

A year in a week

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I fell in love with the puppy quickly. The day after she arrived she started having seizures. We thought we were going to lose her and I have never been so afraid. She’s a miracle baby though and even in her 2.5 pound body, she held on and started to improve every day.

Today we had a set back. She a small cluster of 3 seizures this morning. They all seemed milder and shorter than the ones from earlier in the week. You just don’t know what’s going to happen, so we will love her and cuddle her for as many days as we have.

Ohana

Ohana

Yeah, so I was picking up that one puppy yesterday and got a call that she couldn’t be found. I was so devastated. The thought of a blind and possibly deaf little 6 or 7 week old puppy, outside roaming who knows where? I was just sick over it. I had never even met this little girl and I cried for her.  And then Snow tried to smother me. That’s another story.

Anyway, a few hours later I got a call that she was found and safe. That was the good news.

The bad news. There were two more puppies.

I’m a volunteer for my rescue so I am in no position to make decisions on who we can take in. I didn’t know what, if any, foster space was available.

However, my immediate thought was the Ohana Rule! Of course we would take them.  I quickly texted the Director and before I could finish she said yes.

You see, Ohana means family. And we don’t leave family behind. Even when family is a funny looking aussie.

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So we have three puppies for just a day or two. Then the two black tri babies will be off to one foster home and we will foster the little double merle baby. She’s just a wee 2.5 lbs right now and has lived a life that is not acceptable for the princess that she is. That changes today.

Welcome to your new life babies!

 

 

Puppy Monday?

Puppy Monday?

Or how rescue works.

Him: Who is this?

Our next foster!

No really, who is this?

No really, our next foster.

No seriously. She is cute. What’s her story. Where is she going?

Remember when we discussed fostering a few times a year when the situation was right?

Mmmaybe, no. No. I don’t think so.

Frosty is going to have his surgery in the next couple of months and then we’ll be on break for the rest of the year. She needs us.

No.

She’s blind and

Okay.

Possibly hearing impaired.

Yes okay. Let’s get her safe.

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We are picking here up at 4pm today. She will be always be safe.

I didn’t wake up on a Monday morning and go, yeah I want a puppy by the end of the day and while you’re at it, make her blind too. But we are a bunch of mess when it comes to double merle dogs and well, here we are.

While I could go into rant about double merles and how this was preventable, I’ll skip it for today and be SO grateful she is alive and rescue was an option.

Thank you Carolina Hearts Aussie Rescue for taking this little one in.